Neurora

Self-expression is a difficult topic, if you ask me. Because: “Who am I?”, “What do I want?”, and “What if I change my mind?“

I hate stickers—not that I can’t stand them. I just never know what to do with them.

Because what if I change my mind about their placement? Or the rotation? Or I just don’t like the sticker anymore… It will either mess up the surface on which i have placed the sticker or it will mess up the sticker itself.

I have always had ‘issues’ with personalization and the expression of myself. It goes way back… Why did I need to make my art more personalized, isn’t art all about self-expression and doing what you want?

I have always been more drawn to picture and images than words. I rarely remember series or movies by their name. But show me a scene or the cover, and I’ll recognize it instantly.

But I have always had trouble expressing things with images or drawing myself. I never could get it right—what ended up on paper doesn’t match what I had in my mind.

I also preferred pencils over pens. If I didn’t like something or wanted to adjust something, I could just wipe it off the paper and change it. But pencils had their own down sides, like they needed to be sharpened from time to time.

For these – and probably many more – I have always felt a mental battle which needed to be fought before I could put something on paper. A hill which needed to be climbed to have an attempt at getting better putting thoughts on paper.

But recently I have had a small victory!

I have bought a myself a tablet with a pen. Being able to draw digitally felt a bit strange at first. But the mental battle before putting something on paper was almost nonexistent.

I found myself way more often grabbing my tablet to draw out my thoughts.

Making the expression of my thoughts just a little bit easier…